Im juz that sort of person.. who makes herself scarce and invinsible, once I think youe're either avoiding me or juz not into me.
It does not disturb me what we've done, what we've shared.
Not coz I dont care.
But becoz it's easier to move on if you allow yourself to, than believing in something that's not even there.
Dis yr's prove too much to me than I want to believe in.
And certainly, Im choosing to walk away from it all.
It's not that I m tired from being dis way. It's all been a little too real.
Everytime I feel that I am nearly there. The moment of succession, it juz disappears right in front of my eyes. Like having my foot stucked in the middle of a closing door.. My life is forever left ajar. Not opened for new experiences, not closed to leave everything behind.
One whole yr.. I've tried to believe that thr's ONE person made for me. BUT everytime it juz proves me otherwise. So screw all dis happily ever after.If thr's any happy right now, Im up for it. Maybe Im juz not that person who has a happily ever after. A fairytale gone tragically wrong.
So I m saying my humble apologies. Becoz I honestly think that I cant be that person anymore. Who absorbs all the crap. Who believes in all the shit the whole world has been bullshitting on to me.
I havent found that person who loves me, for me.
Who understands my flaws, my imperfections and actualli finds it beautiful.
Men in general juz run the other way when it gts to the ugly me.
So all I can say. Is. FUCK OFF LOSERS.
BTW, ah boy that wasnt for u. I still care for u. Of coz alot of shit happened b/w us. Im juz hoping we cud still b friends.
To the rest who pretends to have fallen for me.
Seriously. Fuck the hell out of life. I cant give a shit what you think. BECOZ. I am choosing to leave u and ur crap behind. This isnt Jewel's video clip. Im nt gonna b playing dis foolish game no more.
You cant break my heart. Bcoz. It has never been in 1 solid pc since yrs ago.
It had always been broken. No one bothered to pick up the pieces after it fell apart. what's the difference now? I juz dont believe in love animore.
WE can stop pretending now.
{the riddle of red}
