My happiness has resulted in a lot of sorrows for some.
How selfish of me, to think of only me myself & I. Sometimes it is juz so impossible to please everyone. Only god knows how tired I am. How tired I am of trying to please everyone just so that I can be that person that they can love.

Sometimes it's like.. I'm drifting in the air.. like I dont really know where to go & what to do. I keep telling myself everything will turn out right, but I honestly don't know what right is.

There's only 365 days in a yr, 52 weeks in a yr, 7 days in a week and only 24 hrs in a day. How come how come do I feel that there isnt enough time for everyone and myself. Time and time again, love simply juz aint enough to move things along.

I'm frustated and fed up as it is. It's like. I juz wanna give up and die.

Thing is, I nvr meant to hurt anyone. I cannot afford to hurt fragile hearts. But that is what seemingly to be the case. I juz keep tripping along.. unintentionally, I juz gt u hurt again.. and again.. and I juz dont know if u can forgive me anymore.

Im finally 21!

Whenever I say that out loud, I realli cant believe it. Coz deep down inside.. I realli do not feel any much different then wen i was 14 or ever since.

But you see, I have successfully turned 21. hehehehe.

And Im on a week's leave!! weeeeeeeee.... Do you know what liberating feeling that is? Life is juz oh so gorgeous.

And I have finally at least made my room look like a room and not a rubbish dump. It realli tks alot of effort I tell you!

I actually dont realli have much to say. Xcept that it feels good to be surrounded by friends & loved ones. The important thing is in knowing that pple still care and love you. I can never emphasize how important that is to me. But I m sure i have made it a lil clearer.

And. Happy birthday to you.