U know.. I think if my friends were to describe me, they'd say Im straight forward, direct and at times tactless when necessary. They'd say Im strong..
But. at times, I am anithing but that. Especially Now, Im far from anithing close to that.. More than ever.. I try to pull through now. Trying ever so hard with all I have not to wilt and die, when all I feel is doing that...
I dont know what to do to myself sometimes.. when looking at pix makes me sad.. I juz cant help but study ur face. haha.. Oh god.. Contradicting & being an oxymoron. I cant stand myself.
I mean like give me a break... everywhr ard me.. jingles are going along the lines of "'tis e season to be jolly! la la la la"...
hahah.. I think Im like the person who has tat dampened spirit in seasons with so much joy and love.
When the whole world seems to be living in carols.. Im having sad love songs as my anthem... haha.. (juz listen to me!)
Aniwae.. Dido says it best..
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harderOr return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"Then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
*And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on*
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
{the riddle of red}
