In e midst of smoke and the sounds of India.. Suzi & I was engaged in such "heavy" conversation..
Coz u see.. after days of long considering ourselves to be part of the "SYTs" (sweet young things), we juz kinda figured we wont b SYTs for too long. esp since if the 2 of us wanted to get married by 25 which will be in 2010, we shud get planning n saving up.
Like u know.. eg get engaged nx yr? Yeah who'd have tot tat we r juz a decade away from M'sia's vision of the 2020!
It's like it seeemed suddenly so real. That Im not juz gonna go from the east to the west w/out having a fiance. I meant like... gosh! Im 23 nx yr!!
And to even illustrate the pt tat I maybe too xhausted,
I fell aslp when Im supposed to go out.. haiz.
Nvm, I shall go out tomorrow. I nd a life la. And by that, it doesn include pubbing at some indian pub at clarke quay surrounded by indian music. hehe.
I was looking thru who browsed my friendster..
And I saw my friend's bf looking at me.
In his profile, I c lotsa pix of hers. It's funny, but no1 seems to see the cracks in those almost perfect picture.
Who could blame them? Both were equally attractive.
But hey beneath perfection..
Thr's always room for question.
Have you ever met that someone whom you loved too much?
Would u with all you had let him/her go??
That person
who'll groan at the corny part of the movie together with you
who can emphatise with work stress best
whose smile is the warmest
whose arms are the most comforting
who will sacrifice his sleep for your comfort and safety?
whose eyes will reflect you in them
Of coz together with your silly arguments..
and the wrong words used during conversations..
the endless jealousy.
Why was it that after 2 mths..
Of tears, unbearable silences..
Everything just felt like it was just yesterday that I had you.
That you're the 1st person I want to call when things go wrong..
Why is it that the most comfort comes from you, when I needed re-assurances?
That you still could calm me down?
And I still believed you when you tell me everything's gonna be okay..
That your arms are the ones I find solace in
I cant stand it when you talk as if I am getting married tomorrow.
To know that what we had and what we shared is only temporary..
To know I cant be your wife
& that forever wont be ours..
I cannot hear your voice and not want you here
I cannot watch you and not want to touch your face
I cannot walk beside you, and not naturally hold your hands..
I cannot sit beside you and not want to smell your shirt
I cannot lie beside you and not want to love you more..
I cannot not know how to love you.
When that is what all I know best.
Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu
Pudar kah sudah cinta yang ku beri
Berwarna warni segala
Yang dijanjikan ia
Chorus
Usah biarku bersendirian
Usah biar hati mu di tawan
Usah biar diri ku di sini
Seorang menunggu tanpa teman
Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu
Usah biar semua berlalu
Usah terlupa perasaan hati
Pertama kali kita bertemu
Usah lepaskan
Bridge
Tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu
Ku ingin selalu bersama mu
Repeat Chorus
Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
Engkau dan dia harus bersama
Mendungnya langit bila berkata
Kita patutnya masih bercinta
Usah lepaskan
Usah lepaskan
Usah lepaskan
Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu
*"Kadang2 orang yang kita paling sayang adalah orang yang paling susah untuk disayangi."*
