Thursday, March 13, 2008

I called him to tell him that I did very well for my presentation.
But I didnt.
Coz he sounded distant and disinterested..
It broke my heart and tore me apart. I was affected, but I was in the train. I cant juz cry in front of e many passengers.

But I didnt manage to reach home, before the tears started flowing. Even the whether agrees with me. Its been pouring non stop dis past few days.

What else do I need to say?
What else can I do?
What other options are there for me?

I am in a place, so familiar but so different.

Juz now my classmates asked me again y I cried yesterday. All I said there was too much stress lately. Then someone said.. But your BF supports u right...
And I could only smile.

There's so much in that sentence alone that weighed on me. Y do I communicate with only tears and smiles now?

Y do I love you so much still?

Y cant I juz do as what you tell me to?

So many questions that can only be left unanswered.

And you only tell me one thing everday. You don't want me anymore.