Thursday, August 28, 2008
So it has been close to a week, since school has ended for me. Life has pretty much changed significantly.
Currently, I have been posted to somewhere where the status of my workplace is high, where my big bosses have high praises for, and where everyone and anyone you meet in my organization will only have one thing to say to you "you will love it there."
So do I?
Well, it is far too early to say. But generally, it is ok. And I am caring for lesser patients. So I suppose, perhaps that is what they are referring to.
But I don't know. Familiarity is often comfort. And where I am supposed to adapt, I am finding it hard 2 do so. It is indeed scary to be thrown into a new environment, where u are aware of politics. And you do not yet have the status of a "pet."
Well, to comfort myself, I will save up for the pochette accessories, which costs less than 500 SGD. At least, it is within my means. Haiz. And just maybe, perhaps for this yr's bonus, I shall buy myself a charm bracelet from tiffany's.. the sterling silver that is! hehe.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Bad experiences scar you for life.. and you tend to remember the negatives more than you should. Perhaps you learn not to trust so much, not to let yourself go so deep; because everything of the past that you went through is still ringing in your ears loud and clear.
You remember what to avoid.. what not to say or do. You build a wall, high enough. So you will be safe.
But what then, when someone climbs over so easily? Break through your defenses?
Do you give the benefit of the doubt? Learn to have faith; when little is left?
And.. when there is more involved, than just emotions; does that mean you are more insured? That it's safer?
Perhaps, would it mean that everything is okay?
When I should have been busy criticizing home health care practices or nursing home practices, I was busy looking at facebook and louis vuitton. As usual, procastinating just gets the better of me.. and laziness, don't even get there. haha. It's an incurable disease.
I've been oggling at my object of lust... the louis vuitton pochette accessories, or the milla mm pochette. Haiz.. Can money please grow on trees? I mean already I can't afford the speedy 30 *hint hint* but wouldn't it be superiffic if I do get to own it? You see, my greatest ambition was to own a glass showcase to hold all my bags and shoes.. lol.. just kidding ah. I dont think I will own THAT much of stuff la..
Well, LV or not, I am happy where I stand.. alhamdullilah. Of coz, the journey to be where I am have been a long meandering ones. Filled with so many ups, and the unforgettable downs. I guess the downs are the ones that eventually makes you be ever so grateful for the good times you are having.. Like they always said.. cliche, but true.. You can't have the rainbow, without the rain.
Of late, since I have been spending a considerable amount of time in bed; that includes not only snoozing, but working with my lappie, reading, watching TV, I figured that it is abt darn time that I got a bigger bed.
Yes my friends, I want more room, to lull ard in bed (seemingly my current fave place). Not that thr's anything wrong with my current single scanteak, but I guess, after close to 10 yrs, I just favour some change. In fact, Ive kinda surveyed for a new wardrobe and I intend to conduct some serious spring clean (hopefully w/in a 3 yr range). I realised that I have managed to accumulate enough junk to send some to the salvation army and still not have enough space.
A lot of things has got to go, starting from my 10 yr series.. pls do not smirk.. yes, I am a keeper. I just hate to throw away things. Visit me, if you doubt me.
So.. in an attempt to find "larger" space of comfort,I went bed hunting part of the past weekend. But Ikea just doesn't seem to offer a gorgeous poster bed. Yep.. even when it comes to redecorating, I am looking for a dream.. my dream poster bed. I have yet to scour the grounds of Barang barang (the factory outlet la! I have yet to earn enuff to shop at barang2 during non offer seasons). hehe...
So when one can't be dere, surely there's always e-shopping.. manage to find courts n scanteak online; with such saddened heart I have not yet found ANY poster beds... but I do hope that there's more luck when I do scour the factory outlets at woodlands..
