I feel that I'm so detached from his life...
Feel that even as a friend.. or someone he CLAIMED to love and cherish.. that I'm no longer so important animore.
We were supposed to go out today.
I juz wanted to pass him somethings that I've gotten for his 21st birthday..
But I'm juz so sad he's too bz to notice me.
So here I am in my room listening to CDs & watching DVDs..
And hoping that the Saturday would fly by.
Then I'm going to wash my clothes and mop the floor...
I know things are really important to him now.
I know that especially since they are going to go Thailand after CNY.
NS makes boys into men they say...
Has he become so much a man that thr's no longer the space for love & friendships?
I'm feeling so so sad.
I don't need him to be there 24/7. I don't need him to love me endlessly. I don't need empty promises & broken dreams. Juz like I'm not needed animore.
I'm juz so tired what with my cramps & all. Are all Men the same?
Oh fuck it all. See if I care.
Aniwae, I went out yesterday.. yeah yeah..
Went to causeway point. Didn't realise that the Gelare there is already opened. So happy that it was. Was happy i got my ice cream in the banana boat basket yummy~
Then bought pants for Mummy. Bought meself earrings. Bought black pepper chicken..
Then got home and slept... Woke up. A friend got a pair of free passes to Zouk. But since im so free from clubbing.. decided not to go. Yeah.. what a waste I hear you say. Hehe.BUT I went to town instead!! I caught "shall we dance" & it was so hilarious & romantic.. makes me wanna go enrol for ballroom dancing! hahah.. B4 that we ate at the LJS @ cineleisure. Den I droppped by HMV. Bought 2 singles & 2 CDs.. Den we headed to c offee bean over @ paragon. It was full! Can u believe it? But the cashier was cute heheh *winkz* We finally caught the movie @1130 b4 heading hm..When I got home I slept til 6 Am den I kept on having cramps... I got my period today.. Oh just as well since I'm not going out. I'm starting work on Monday.
hehe...And meeting my FRIENDs there... well. here's a song for all of you. I 'm in da mood for romance..
I need to talk with you again,
why did you go away,
All our time together, just feels like yesterday,
I never thought I'd see,
a single day without you,
You see the things we take for granted we can sometimes lose.
And if I promise not to fell this pain,
Will I see you again,
will I see you again.
Time will pass me by, may be I'll never learn to smile,
But i know I will make it through,
if you wait for me.
And all the tears I cry,
no matter how I try.
They will never bring you home to me,
so won't you wait for me in heaven.
Do you remember how it was,
when we never seemed to care.
Days went by so quickly,
cos I thought you'd always be there.
It's hard to let you go,
though I know that I must try.
I feel like I've been cheated,
cos we never said goodbye.
And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again.
And I miss you so,
and I need to know,
Will you wait for me.
*oh & I finally changed my layout.. is it pretty? It's much simpler than the previous one yeah..
{the riddle of red}
