Have you noticed that today all state flags was flying @ half mast? If you've heard.. it's bcoz of e passing of our late Mr Wee kim Wee.. and it didnt help it was pouring..
I think..that he had lived a meaningful life... I mean.. some of us.. are still living.. but what differs us frm e dead? I've been feeling a little cold recently.. a lil unsure... y is it.. we distance ourselves from emotion. Even I now detach myself from too much unneccessary interactions.. Yes I still laugh & smile... but @ this age when it juz hit you 20 yrs juz flew by.. it makes you wonder.. what you've earned and lost... and what you've nvr even tried achieving b4. Kinda mks u feel like u've aged a little...
I woke up this morning & I looked into the mirror. I wasn't expecting ani1 different to look back @ me... but rather, I was wondering.. how much have I lived? Does my face tell the life I live... Thr's things I'd nvr mention here.. nor to ani1.. maybe bcoz... it's more comfy under my skin.. But when thr are days... that you feel uncomfortable in ur own skin... Does any1 know what you are keeping or even trying to hide from yourself?
Hisyam's sis in law saw me again today... and she told one of the other nurses.. I've seen her since she was little... Little meaning.. I was 17. Now I'm 20... and she says... it's nice to see me becoming a staff nurse soon=)
Maybe currently... that's all thr is to my life... work... It's sad when your existence is reduced to juz merely the creation of service for consumerism.
MUNGKIN NANTI
Saatnya ku berkata
Mungkin yg terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
Kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku
Jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yg kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua disini
Dan bila hati mu terbangun
Bangun dari mimpi mimpimu
Membuka hati mu yg dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yg dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku
Jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yg kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua disini
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
Simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari
Semua rasa yang kau beri
{the riddle of red}
