I had a conversation with Siti today.. and boy.. we re-discovered alot abt ourselves w/in this morning.
There were alot of things that were buried inside of me. Becoming who I am. No longer who I was. There were things that I cannot learn to live with, no matter hw hard I tried. No matter hw I wanted to just let it go.. I just keep it w/in.
I cried today reflecting on what Ive done. Hw along e way.. my principles have changed so much... and how a strong person.. Ive tried to be.. will crumble in the end.
I dont know hw Im going to pull through this. Im praying God will forgive me. Coz no matter what.. Im nvr going to judge ani1 else. At the end of this.. thr was a lot of things that I screwed on. But 1 thing.. Im trying to mk everything better. Even the darkest side..
.. And I hope at the end of the day... Though I have failed at a lot of things.. I hope that Allah... with his love for his pple.. would forgive me.
{the riddle of red}
