I think maybe I nd to see a shrink. I have this thoughts that simply keep putting me down. The voices in my head are condemning me this days. Oh God. Tats partially the reason that I found such difficulty in sleeping.
CT asked me if I was interested to go to... JENG JENG JENG BATAM! hehe.. I dont realli think that is such a gd idea though.
You know now that I am 20.. I have a few grps of friends.. like think:
1. primary skool friends
2. Secondary skool friends.. whr you gt to hear abt MY BOYS
3. Nursing friends
4. Poly friends
5. Online friends...
6. Friends in PA.. (Abg2 polis)
7. Friends in Tekong.. to which I refer to as e tekong peeps..
8. Friends of friends
And I am wondering.. among all this pple.. am I important to them? By any chance?
Yesterday Yusry was asking me if I wanted to go out come Sunday.. But I have kenduri on Sunday. And Im not free Monday. I think he thinks Im making stories up. But it's just what it is.
I havent met ani1 new in centuries. I think that's a gd thing for now. I already feel suffocated at times...
Some online friend ( who happens to be one of my nursing friend's x bf)... which mks him.. a friend of my friend (refer to #8) says that he wanna meet me. Doesnt he understand when I say I still dont know what I want. That' s exactly what I meant. And when I said I loved solitude. It doesnt mean Im a sad lonely freak. Sheesh. Men.
Since Im so free now.. I shall blog abt what I bought @ e JL summer sale..
I bought a new tubey..shorties...beach wear. cant be bothered to tk a pic of it. Maybe when I have e time later yah...
I did my nails too.. They are so pretty...
ok ok... enuff already?
I know Im blabbering. But Im bored. & tired. & it's raining...
... And e radio's playing stoopid songs.
{the riddle of red}
