Met up with Lyne to go look for someone who could replace my lost BCLS card.
I didnt realise becoming a nurse would be so difficult & tk so much of an effort.
Aiyoh.
Had a headache from the lack of slp searching for that tiny card..
and rushed to NYP to seek help from Bryan after being screamed & reprimanded by Ms Wong.
God.
and I thought when u start working all the nightmares from ur lecturers would be gone.
Anihoo. When we were leaving campus...
Guess who I saw?
Yes. That bdk kecik who I've dated yonks ago.
He juz past me bye seh...
Sedih akak dibuatnye.
Yelah.
Juz coz he has a bike & the girl now..
Juz who am I?
An older woman...
LOLX.
Oh well.
Nothing's new in my romantic life.
Exes juz keep behaving that way..
and making a fool of me.
Maybe I shud accept it as what it is..
My exes' girls can nvr accept me.
Bcoz im an X.
And even tho I wanna be friends..
thr's no chances of that happening in hell or heaven.
Yeah... so wat with the replacement of the card taking so much of my energy..
having to see him juz walk in front of me..
without acknowledging me..
is
S-A-D.
and here's e poem that I wrote but nvr sent..
It was right by the esplanade..
where we ferst met & I let down my guard..
I remembered it all too clearly
You & Your bunch of groupies.
Why had we exchanged numbers?
Coz I knew you were different and not much older..
Your smses kept me company,
Yourj jokes & the way they mk me laugh, mks me downright happy!
You might have collected a strewn of numbers
You could have looked & Chose the others.
But I was the one who said yes..
And then you told me I was quite unlike the rest.
You became my man,
And I was your number 1 fan
We knew we were different
Yet we presevered no matter how apparent.
We didnt gt along.. me & your friends.
But bcoz they were yours, I tried hard to blend.
I believed in you
And even now when we are oh-so-through
I didnt need to prove nor impress
Coz when Im with you, I know that I am the best
You loved me, I could feel
The things we did, no matter how regular was still a thrill.
And then it happened lil bit of insecurities
A thousand questions, less room for peace
Questions arose, unanswered.
And came the times we challenged each other, nothing faltered.
Beautiful, or not.
Things rose in my mind, & in thr they got caught
Leave me I had said..
Always hoping for the best, I prayed...
It mattered not.. if I still loved
Keep focussing.. Leave the rest, if push comes to shove.
You may thing a wh0le lot of other reasons..
But mine was still the one given..
I know that you are special
I knew coz I was once your girl
I know that you can do well
.. and that's y I threw in the towel
Studies are so much more important
There'll be more chicks to come in turn
Love can wait.
And if it is meant to be, let's leave it to fate.
Try & be the best you can
Coz I see inside this boy, a great man.
And comes a time that you'll miss me..
Know that I feel the same, No matter what changes thr might be, you'll see.
{the riddle of red}
