I remembered when I first gt my posting tat I was going in 46 I wasnt to say the happiest person ever... but well.. I guess time kinda heals huh.
So almost 2 mths since ive been here n 5 staff frm B2 stn already left. Come sept Sean would be leaving too... sheesh. That leaves 46 to be badly short staffed.
Aniwae.. other than that I m relatively settled...
Life's been very fast paced everyday. Everything's come too short.. And gone too soon. Days spent lazing over at McDonald's & going over to town after skool are definitely a thing of e past.
The days when I can still smell my perfume without practically using the whole bottle is up too! And dont even start abt make up.. haha. It's like the day I left skool. I left vanity, pride & maybe even a part of my youth behind. It's not that I've forgotten how to laugh or smile. It's juz that maybe we are forced to look at the fragility of life & relationships in the eye. No more juz learning it text book way.
Back in skool nursing management was juz answering a set of questions correctly but when you are in the ward it's really different. I miss being a student. I've missed the old me.. who slps very little but enjoy life to the fullest! Growing up is realli not ez. But when you actually do, you reminicise a lot of the days that's left behind.
I just miss my friends very very much. I miss giggling... until my jaws and tummy aches. *Sigh* I still laugh at work. But it isnt e same. Besides, thr's so much of politics! And I tot when I joined nursing I was trying to get away from it.. but well... here it is right in my face!
But it isnt all bad la.. the best part of nursing is when you see your patients leaving & smiling.. & it's then that you know you've done it right. You've made him/her feel comfy. It's abt feelings. It's not juz technical. sometimes to do a gd job.. you juz have to care.
It's when u & your colleagues help each other out & have sth called team work, sth 46 has that maybe other wards lack.
Nursing is never ez. And as a fresh new nurse, Im very sure not alot of pple understand that I have to stay back at work to finish what i haven done that occured during my shift. That I dont get my weekends off sometimes. That I can even work afternoon. Some of my patients call it social suicide. But if u lk at it another angle.. it gives u more time to do things off peak. Shopping at 10 or 11 in e morning b4 work. haha.
But aniwae... after all that's said.. I juz wanna say.. I hope that those of you reading this would respect & at least be kind to nurses. Thr's alot of sacrifices that we have to make sometimes. And having our heart broken everytime isn't healthy. *winks* Here's a happy nurses day to all.
May we all have a heart that never hardens
A temper that never rises
A touch that never hurts
A smile that never fades.
{the riddle of red}
