It's funny how you found a friend.. in the person you dont quite think was possible. But Im glad I did. And it's a she.
Meeting ended at 5. Fuck. 2 1/2 hrs. Knew what time I ended work? 8.30 PM n I was a morning girl. I started work at 6.40 am finished at 8.30 pm. I dont know what kinda life I lead. tsk tsk.
Anyway. I dont know what that woman was going on and on abt me being arrogant and having an attitude problem. I realli cannot tk it you know. I almost ask her if she has anything against me personally. It's like she's perpetually picking on me.
And for the record. Yesterday was the 1st time I locked myself in the toilet n cried. I was so tired. so so tired. Yet I had to have it. I dont know hw im going to pull myself through. But I know one way or another.. I cant let it get to me..
I have to be strong, and juz tolerate this fault finder b4 I m going to ask for transfer next appraisal. Haiz.
Can I juz say I wanna gt marrieed n have kids n not think abt work?
Or should I juz give up nursing?
All I know is that neither is THE option. More like I dont have a choice.
Mmmmh
Whoaaa
They can say,
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I will not allow anyone
To succeed hanging
Clouds over me,
And they can try
Hard to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to falter in
What I believe or
Loose faith in my dreams
'Cause there's,
There's a light in me,
That shines brightly,
They can try,
But they can't take
That away from me
From me
No no nooo
Oh they,
They can do
Anything they want to you,
If you let them in,
But they won't ever win,
If you cling to you pride
and just push them aside,
See I,
I have learned,
There's an inner peace I own,
Something in my soul that
They can not possess
So I won't be afraid and
The darkness will fade
'Cause there's,
There's light in me me,
That shines brightly, yes
They can try,
But they can't take
Hhat away from me
No oh oh,
They can't take this
Precious love I'll always
Have inside me,
Certainly the Lord will
Guide me where I need to go
Woah, woah
They can say
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing
Out of their reach,
Although they do try,
Hard to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to fall,
Tell me what I believe or
Loose faith in my dreams,
'Cause there's a light in me,
That shines brightly yes
They can try but they can't
Take that away from
Me
From me
No no no
Me
Can't take that away from me = Mariah Carey
{the riddle of red}
