I was reali xhausted last night that I totally skipped dinner! When my mom called, I juz said ok I'll eat in 5 mins.. 5 mins ended up til this morning! Haaha...
yup. I was reali tired. Tired til I cant even be bothered to think abt food. But work itself wasnt too bad. And Im starting my night tonight..
Msged Sean earlier on this wk to check out how he's doing. And haha poor boy developed in-grown toe nails. Shux that's disgusting! But anihoo.. other than that he is pretty splendid. I misssssssssssssssss him & it's great to know he misses me too. And I hope it's not juz a generated answer to that kinda statement if you know what I mean.
Ive been bz bz bz.. & When Lyn called 2 nights ago. I was even contemplating on not answering her. But well.. The ferst thing I said when I answered was "I know Ive been a very bad friend.." But I began sobbing as well which of coz breaks in horrendous hiccupy wails..
Y was I crying? I was telling her abt my hellish episodes at work. It was lyk... oh mi god. I mean I have talked to so many pple.. But I guess that was y i nvr bothered contacting her. Scared I may juz break down like that. True friends does that to you . It was great being comforted by her all over again. And it was then that I knew how much in this world I needed her N pik teng.
All in all, it was a HUGE relief.
And of coz, now I have sent my baju for Hari raya. So all's that left is to celebrate N of coz la.. puasa. Im still excited abt it, albeit the fact that my place seems like it's been hit by katarina.
Life's been routine-ish. I've been happier. But I still M happy now... Juz more stronger, and less naive. And when I say something now.. I mean it more tho pple seldom believe it as what they've always been doing since then. So to whoever who understands what Im writing abt..Accept how things are. Embrace the situation. Coz thr's nothing that you can do abt it. Coz it seems more like Im the stranger now.
{the riddle of red}
