James msg me asking y have i been keeping quiet all dis while n not even replying to his msg.. Sumtymes I dont know if he realises that pple are not as blind as they seem, not when e situation is so salient.
So in the end, again his smses and calls went unanswered. Not that I wanted to forget him. But what's the use if what was good in the past was juz treated as a game.. and what is the use when lies are the onli truth that I know?
I juz dont wanna immerse myself in all of those emotional bullshit any longer. Yes I am damn bz and social-less.. but who cares? I mean at least I know no one is playing anithng against me.
I have been at peace myself for a while. Yes. I may not have found what I have been looking for. And yes. I might have been disappointed more times than I can ever remember. But isnt disappointment juz part of life? Afterall, we're juz mere mortals...
Talking abt disappointments and all.. i m working on Hari raya.. Of coz that didnt come as a surprise. And to those who are readng dis.. dont u guys dare mock me when the day comes k? U better b nice.. hehe
And I had my appraisal done yesterday AGAIN. It's like every 6 monthly. They were saying I should think abt what my interests is. I m thinking like. HUH. Ok. I realli do not know.
Yesterday a very young man collapsed in the ward toilet. It was scary. REALLI. It's juz so real. I mean it was the kinda thing that happened on TV. Not right in front of your eyes. So what I wanted to say is juz like.. realli appreciate what you do. You realli have no idea what's gonna happen nx I tell ya.
Of coz most of e times.. most of us get too caught up in life. And appreciation comes too late.
That man died despite resuscitation .
{the riddle of red}
