No.. That's not realli me in orgasms.. Just you know the theme song for Sentosa's advert?

You guessed it right! *Ding ding ding* I've gt back from Sentosa and it's fun fun fun everyone!

Wahh so nice to spend time at the beach (Laughing at skimmers were also part of the relaxations la) & luckily enuff I was already out of the beach by the time it started drizzling! yay!

I think Sentosa has realli became a superrific place to hang out and chill in the past yr.. what wif e new attractions and all! I enjoyyyyyyyeedddd myself everytime I head thr. It's like the place to be (Not to mention a whole lot of reasons to shop for beach wear haha)!

Anihoo I think it's great that I have called it quits with the so called scandal. Haiz.Dont know what got into my head that I ALLOWED myself to go out with someone's else's bf's (to put it mildly). All's well and good. No more GUILT. My conscience is finally clear. The worst was when I logged on friendster and found his profile.. Goodness gracious me, to find his pics with his gerl all over e place.. is pure... ermm... PRETENTIOUS??? (not that I expected my face in his profile la..) If I didnt have a heart nor a head, I think e poor gerl would haf most probably killed me and herself and get us both admitted in a psychiatric ward for depression and schizophrenia.

Tat is y Sentosa always cures... It gets me in a better mood. The sun sand and sea never fails me!

Yes it's been a tumultaneous week for me. My grandma finally gt discharged. She's better now. Alhamdullilah. And I survived 8 full working days... I am great baby!

Hey come along nx time!


.. You can THEN find out wats so funny


And we can take e ride on the chair lift..


Then walk down down down to the merlion until we start sulking


Ok better start smiling again =) =) =)


Dont know e way home? I can show u!


Okay say goodbye!

On my way to work on Sunday, I noticed that Orchard Rd has started prep for Xmas's decos.

Yet another reminder that it's nearly yr end. When I think abt this past yr.. I juz think that it's been a gd yr (yeah sum bad tymes.. but mostly gd ones.) Im juz lucky to have pple who care and love me ard.

Not to mention that I still get duit raya (green packets) though I have started working and I myself am starting to give to others.

24 hrs juz seemed to short. And hours no longer matter. I dont have a pattern to how I live my life. I go out when it suits me. I dont know what's on TV and I certainly am not the typical Singaporean who leads the 8-5 job and weekends with the family thing. And should I speak honestly I sometimes wished I juz lead a normal boring typical Singaporean life who sends their kids to the nanny b4 they get to work n pick dem up b4 they gt home and spend e weekends going t0 e movies/shopping and who gets to spend their public holidays going travelling n stuff. Sometimes la... But most times Im quite glad that I can avoid crowded shopping ctrs and screaming children. Irritating would be an understatement.

aaaaannniiiiiiwwwaaaeeeee...

it's been a long time since I last went clubbing. can I go clubbing again? My feet are already itching to boogey dude! I dont know is it bcoz Im getting bored of projecting the gd gerl nx door image or anithing.. but I juz feel that I wanna dye my whole head a light shade and stop wearng speckies that makes me look like cikgu Bedah's equivalent! Im tired of going home st after work and having social activities that makes my grandma looks even more hip!

Haiz.. can someone juz pls spice up my life? Boring tau hidop mcm gini hari2..

kini saat yg terakhir
ku pinta maaf kepada mu
jauh dari lubuk hatiku tk pernah ku dtg padamu
bila engkau tk percaya
ku rela korban jiwa raga
kini saat yg penghabisan
ku harap kau dtg pada ku

berulang kali ku nyatakan
aku syg pd mu
berulang kali ku meminta
peluklah belailah daku
ohhhh
itu tk pernah terjadi
semua harapan berlantar
nafas ku yg terakhir ini
hanyalah ku tujukan pada mu

berulang kali ku nyatakan
aku syg pd mu
berulang kali ku meminta
peluklah belailah daku
ohhh
itu tk pernah terjadi
semua harapan berlantar
nafas ku yg terakhir ini
hanyalah ku tujukan pada mu

Entah kenapa. Agaknye sdg2 raya... atau mungkinkah kerana dah terlalu lama tk jumpa... Rasa rindu teramatlah sangat. Mcm nk sangat nk jumpa... Nk rasa yg dia dkt dgn I.. Entahlah. Maybe tngh feeling2 aje. Maklumlah dah malam.

Lama nah dah tak jumpa. Bukan rindu dia aje. Rindu sangat dgn family dia pun, Tapi ape nk buat kan. Rindu tk semestinye makna masih sayang kan... And I know I dont quite love him. It's juz I miss him a lot. He's been a part of my life since a long while ago. Feels like something's missing.. and he's going into NS. mcm mana la... rindu sangat kat dia. Rindu sgt masa2 yg dah lepas. Nk sgt tgk dia.. tgk senyuman.. dgr ketawa dia... bau minyak wangi dia..haiz. Ini la org yg tk bercinta. Ngan cinta pertama pun masih main merindu2.. Ape nk buat. Hati bukan boleh diperintahkan.

I dont know la. It's juz that sometimes when I think abt him I juz feel so so sad.. so sayang that our relationship had to end bcoz of a 3rd party. Bukan pasal tk sayang each other. Bukan pasal pertengkaran.. but something as stupid as that. And nearly 4 yrs on. I still think of him.. and I still m missing him. Sometimes I wished we nvr had broken off. But than pple change over periods. And I know he'll nvr be the same guy Ive once known. I also know that he's juz too far from me to get back together. And I know even if we do gt back he juz wont be able to love me for me anymore. Coz I know Im much different now.



And I know the past should be left where it belongs.

I have so much to say but so lil time. Let's juz say I was lucky enuff to get e day of. YAY! Anyhoo. Woke up pretty late coz I tk e flu tabs last night. So.. After that quickly gt ready to jln raya. Here are some pix.

1stly we went over to my paternal grandma's place. Of coz I gt my v yummylicious lepat thr. So nice!!!

Here's my Mak Long's family:


And my own family:




Nx stop my maternal grandparent's sis place:


Me, Aunts n Mom

I finished work on time only to realise that one of my pt's brown folder was missing! OMG! I spent a gd hr hunting for it high and low with me screaming in hystericals saying I wanna go home coz it's hari raya eve... onli for my Dr to find it for me. I know if every1 was like me.. tsk tsk. den all e dr's would have a terrible time.

Anyway it's fast that 2morrow is already Hari raya. I btw am not feeling gd.. down with e flu n i lk so shagged but wattodo. Life goes on. Anyway am happy at least can eat alot of yummylicious things!

It's funny when u get to know ur subordinates well.. what it's like for them..to be walking in their shoes. I know I shouldnt complain so much coz some pple have it even worse than us.And I m not saying this juz coz it's Hari raya eve k.

Hari raya of yesteryears always brings back alot of memories for me.

Kinda makes me wish I was much younger than before. But than it doesn always have to b hari raya f0r me to wish that I was younger. Ive always been wishing for that..