Literally almost everyone said I looked good.
Said that my complexion has improved & that I have that glowing aura.
haha.
Well. Guess my dermatologist deserve a pat on his back..
For making my skin this good. =)
Maybe.. it's the start of Ramadhan.. or something.
I went online to look at friendster as usual.. and somehow.. I juz ignored most pple on my MSN list as usual.
My neighbour msged me saying that he's sorry over everything that happened and that he missed my presence in his life.
Thr are so many words that can describe how I felt.
But, USED & BETRAYED would be the best.
He said he could understand if I couldnt find it in my deepest heart the will to forgive him.
But I juz said I needed time.
I told him I am realli hurt but I am glad he finally said sorry.
And I said.. even tho I know that we will nvr be.. I juz have to put it in e back of my mind whatever shit that has happened yrs ago and recently.
It juz hurts me to know he did what he did coz he knew he could.
No one shud be able to do that and leave others feeling helpless. And toyed.
And what was worse I said was that it wasnt just once.
It wasnt just one time that he did something and disappeared. I can't forget all of this. And even all the words he said were genuine, I juz couldnt juz say "I forgive you".
And even if I did forgive, I know I won't forget.
We just have done so much and been through so long. And it took him so long to realise when I said "You've changed too much."
If only. Guys would be sure what they want from me.
Like him. He should have just remained as a friend.
"It just wasn't missing you. It was having a void in my life. Like something was missing. Something wasn't right."
Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no
Always always complicated...