Life is funny.
Funny coz when u work hard, u dont get e credits @ times..
And no matter hw much u loved someone, that person juz doesnt love you back.
I juz had 1 of my most down moments this wk.
Dont know why.. I was vacuuming & dusting..
And throwing junk out of my bags...
And I juz felt that hollow empty feeling.
That feeling of loneliness.
How ironic that I shud be lonely, when lonely is the last thing that I am, U might be thinking.
But my friend.. to be lonely & to be alone. Is, but a difference.
Im feeling lonely. But Im definitely not alone.
For, one can feel lonely even if he's in a crowded room.
And one can be alone, yet feel complete.
Maybe Im juz lost. Searching what I have nvr found.
Wanting what I might not need.
... and maybe needing what I dont want.
Im scared of losing.
Im scared of being alone..
And Im even scared of being unloved.
Im such a parasite.. I thrive on another's presence...
And though I nd sometime alone now..
That's not what I want in the long run.
For God didnt create Man to be an island..
But to be surrounded by the pple he loves.
Watching a cynical movie doesnt help.
Maybe the truth is just too real for me to accept.
{the riddle of red}
