So much has happened in 2008.
Too much; at times.
I would have chosen any year prior to this, but they say what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger.
And for all the wrong, that I've made right.
For all the tears that I have chose to laugh off,
I am still here.
Hoping and believing tomorrow will be a better day.

Reviewing '08 from the start:
1. Beginning of advance dip

2. My Grandpa being diagnosed with cancer

3. Him leaving me (Beginning of a tumultous start)

4. Mom Switching job

5. Adapting to new department & colleagues

6. Finding out truths becomes lies; and never knowing to tell the difference

How short and simple they may seem when typed out into a review, but only God knows how tough it has been. Some pple have never made it better. But knowing that sometimes, you know that life can bring you down.. but you can still choose to stand. I'm grateful for the pple who has been there, who made it possible for so much to happen. And praying that those who has made me miserable deserve what they do.

Hopefully 2009 will be a better year for all,
Bringing much love, luck, health & of coz wealth!

Im tired and super pissed
And today's my department xmas party.
Can I juz behave badly?
Wud it be xcused coz u did?

Don't know why life seems to get me more apprehensive of late.
I received a phone call from a person who warned me to stay away of a guy I never even talked to. How's that possible? She claims it's for my own good. I wonder what would happen should I not have heeded her advise.

Why do we play these games?
When we know we are just human; wanting the same things out of life.
I am one who believes in fate but do I really deserved what has happened in the past month?

It has been a whole roller coaster ride.. I just can't seem to quite get myself out of that seat.

Despite being so occupied with work; I was having an all time high. So satisfied and happy in life..

Til everything came crashing down, like a tsunami, washing away all that I've worked so hard for.

Everything that I put my faith in has become more of a nightmare with me no longer being able to tell the lies from the truth. Perhaps I have mellowed too far and its ez to take everything I did for granted. Maybe, because I am (though hardly it seems) just an innocent, gullible and naive girl.

Or perhaps, I was experiencing that four letter word. The overused and now maybe meaningless word.

I have become numb
Feeling like a humongous idiot
And wishing my already broken heart was not just stepped on.

I can't believe where we have reached.. certainly, if this was where we were headed for, I would have not embarked on this journey.

Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself
These foolish games are tearing me apart
You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

If only I never thought of the whole world when having to make a decision; certainly nothing would have remained the same.



I dont wanna be the kind of woman who believes an engagement is just another ring on my finger
That marriage is just another piece of paper
That true love hardly exists
And everything in this cold world is just made up of pretences and lies
I just want you to give me what I had believed in
To restore my faith
My trust
My all..
However, how is that ever possible?