Honestly pple working IS exhaustive.. esp if u r a night person & u have to work morning! sheesh.

Penat seh. Dah lah ngantuk. Had to drink Tea with lotsa sugar....

Aniwae.. we tk like 2 new pix today..
haha

I know you muz be thinking arent i supposed to be working?

Yes.. But wat is work without lil bits of fun?

Yeah talk abt fun.. if Im not working Morning today.. I had wanted to go to Zouk... last night... yelah nanti kalau nk g sangat... kene g bawak uniform...lolx.

Oh & the most amazing thing abt work I juz realised... (I know I m slow)....

is..... *DRUM ROLLS*

We have a !!! UNISEX TOILET!!!!!

Yes.

A unisex toilet.

haha...

And juz now I went to toilet with Sean...

You know Di was asking me.. whether me & Sean are an item..

Like duh. Wat the seh.

I mean juz coz we are close.. doesnt mean that we have to be together...

well, Not that I mind.. LOL! Kidding.

Hmm.. I felt weird. Standing in the same toilet with a male @ work...

And him seeing me applying my foundation & telling me I dont need it.

I think I'll miss him. No wait. I KNOW I'll miss him when he leaves for NS.

Haiz... Den Id have to look for a new lunch/toilet partner come venting outlet.

Why is it always lyk tis?

haiz.

Actually this whole unisex toilet thing realli mks me gt reminded of Ally Mcbeal.

Anyone remembered the lawyer with the really short skirt & Slim figure???



And yes.. this is something I wouldnt want happening..


Talk abt invasion of privacy!

hmmm.. so what dya think? hehe. Professional enuff?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

Okey... I muz say it is kinda spot on... haha.. well.. found that off nad's email.

I wont talk abt work.. YET.

Mainly Im ok. And I think I shud go for my graduation ceremony.

Hmmm.....

I know this is sth related to work.. hehe.. but this is kinda exceptional.

Thr's an eye candy @ work. He's a guy, malay, tall & dark.

'nuff said!

Oh & while we r on the topic bout men..

Today 2 middle aged men started talking to me in e lift... (Like on seperate events)

Hahahahah... OMG.

The thrills of being a nurse.

And oh.. I already have a license! My own nursing license! hehehe..

And weird signing my name as Staff Nurse SK. like w-e-i-r-d...

3 yrs of signing NYP Yr1, Yr 2, & Yr 3..... the day that we start signing that way.. is funny la..

But reality sinks it... with great power comes great responsibility...

LOLx.

Til den babes!

chao cin cao!

I haven felt this heavy.. nor sad or disappointed for a period of time.
It's not a welcomed feeling..
But it did stay for e whole day.
Eventually the tears stop..
and I still could smile.
But I continued heaving heavy sighs..
and feeling sad for no particular reason.
It's like the symptoms of depression.
Am I a depressed person?
Of coz... it could be hormonal..
Oh pls pass quickly.
cant stand dis sick I cant eat nor do anithng right feeling!
(It doesnt help to listen to Norah Jones)

Tears:
1 a : a drop of clear saline fluid secreted by the lacrimal gland and diffused between the eye and eyelids to moisten the parts and facilitate their motion b plural : a secretion of profuse tears that overflow the eyelids and dampen the face
2 : a transparent drop of fluid or hardened fluid matter (as resin)
3 plural : an act of weeping or grieving
- tear·less adjective

So many definitions for juz 1 act. ahaha


Anihoo... here's juz a mindless list. read if you want. Found it off someone else's bloggie.

( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
( ) smoked anything else
( ) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted... ahah.. bet u nvr knew that!
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) had/have a crush on one of your "MYSPACE" friends -- WTF?
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire.. Im too vain to be mad
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of "myspace" -- who has done that seh?
( ) been moshing at a concert (Someone pls tell me what that meant)
( ) been in an abusive relationship (Maybe Im e ABUSER!)
(x) taken painkillers
( ) love someone right now.. parents count?
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
( ) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping (like in windstruck)
(x) played dress up
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely all the time
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
( ) ran a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
( ) been in a car accident
(x) had braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
( ) walked barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country/world
( ) swam in the ocean
( ) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers -- =D
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) kissed in the rain
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sunset/sunrise with someone you cared about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" in class
( ) ate dog food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
(x) had a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a popsicle
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes -- yes, my cousins's t-shirt..
(x) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
( ) had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didnt take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
(x) have more then 30 pairs of shoes... Imelda wasn't an icon for nothing..
(x) worn an ugly outfit to school
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
( ) played chicken
( ) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( ) made porn
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
( ) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dipping
( ) been kicked out of your house


What bout u? hehe.

Aniwae everytime I am feeling down down down... I always listen to this song

Jeslina Hashim - Melakar rindu

Terlalu singkat hubungan ini
Belum pun sempat melakar rindu
Baru semalam mimpi dicipta
Mengapa mendung melanda sukma

( 1 )
Kaulah segalanya maka digubah
Ketika cinta masih di dada
Punahlah jua kini akhirnya

Entah mengapa hati bertanya
Mengapa kasih terlerai kini
Ku tak salahkan dirimu sayang
Lantaran takdir sudah tersurat

( ulang 1 2X )

Punahlah jua kini akhirnya

missed those days:
(L to R = me, pei xuan, jie ling, sean, christy, jingle)


(And me & the other SK)

Met up with Lyne to go look for someone who could replace my lost BCLS card.
I didnt realise becoming a nurse would be so difficult & tk so much of an effort.
Aiyoh.
Had a headache from the lack of slp searching for that tiny card..
and rushed to NYP to seek help from Bryan after being screamed & reprimanded by Ms Wong.
God.
and I thought when u start working all the nightmares from ur lecturers would be gone.
Anihoo. When we were leaving campus...
Guess who I saw?
Yes. That bdk kecik who I've dated yonks ago.
He juz past me bye seh...
Sedih akak dibuatnye.
Yelah.
Juz coz he has a bike & the girl now..
Juz who am I?
An older woman...
LOLX.
Oh well.
Nothing's new in my romantic life.
Exes juz keep behaving that way..
and making a fool of me.
Maybe I shud accept it as what it is..
My exes' girls can nvr accept me.
Bcoz im an X.
And even tho I wanna be friends..
thr's no chances of that happening in hell or heaven.
Yeah... so wat with the replacement of the card taking so much of my energy..
having to see him juz walk in front of me..
without acknowledging me..
is
S-A-D.

and here's e poem that I wrote but nvr sent..
It was right by the esplanade..
where we ferst met & I let down my guard..
I remembered it all too clearly
You & Your bunch of groupies.

Why had we exchanged numbers?
Coz I knew you were different and not much older..
Your smses kept me company,
Yourj jokes & the way they mk me laugh, mks me downright happy!

You might have collected a strewn of numbers
You could have looked & Chose the others.
But I was the one who said yes..
And then you told me I was quite unlike the rest.

You became my man,
And I was your number 1 fan
We knew we were different
Yet we presevered no matter how apparent.

We didnt gt along.. me & your friends.
But bcoz they were yours, I tried hard to blend.
I believed in you
And even now when we are oh-so-through

I didnt need to prove nor impress
Coz when Im with you, I know that I am the best
You loved me, I could feel
The things we did, no matter how regular was still a thrill.

And then it happened lil bit of insecurities
A thousand questions, less room for peace
Questions arose, unanswered.
And came the times we challenged each other, nothing faltered.

Beautiful, or not.
Things rose in my mind, & in thr they got caught
Leave me I had said..
Always hoping for the best, I prayed...

It mattered not.. if I still loved
Keep focussing.. Leave the rest, if push comes to shove.
You may thing a wh0le lot of other reasons..
But mine was still the one given..

I know that you are special
I knew coz I was once your girl
I know that you can do well
.. and that's y I threw in the towel

Studies are so much more important
There'll be more chicks to come in turn
Love can wait.
And if it is meant to be, let's leave it to fate.

Try & be the best you can
Coz I see inside this boy, a great man.
And comes a time that you'll miss me..
Know that I feel the same, No matter what changes thr might be, you'll see.

Spoke to Azza.. haha.. discussed e condition of NYP. And she was saying thr's alot of freshies in skool...
And how she hated e sight of them coz they were so eksyen nk mampuz..
Yeah I recalled my days as a senior.
Mmg some of the pple are OVER
Haiz. mayb they think that e campus is a fashion parade or sth..
But den I was a freshie once.
Did my senior's thought of me that way?
hahahah..
But den.. thr's alot of thing I wouldnt know abt myself.
Simply bcoz I refuse to know.
Ignorance is bliss.
I misssssss skool.
Cant stand all dis gd byes seh
haiz
And now here we are in the real world.
Joining e work force.
Now I have CPF you know!
Nx yr I can vote!!!
hahahaha...
OMG.
Signs to show im being welcomed into adulthood!
Worse still..
The other day
we were in a club
and e waitress didnt ask my frend for his ID
tho he was drinking a low alcohol drink
argh
Hw i longed for e days..
whr pple knew right away i was a student..
now no..
pple straight away ask
whr i m working.
maybe it's time to ease into my current status.
A working adult.
(That however sounds far from me...)
oh well.

As you all know.. as soon as my attachment was over, I went on a rushed trip to Langkawi.
And I didnt talk much abt it..
But now I guess is the right time..
Coz Ive finally uploaded e pix.
So..
yeah..
Langkawi was beautiful..
with it's white sandy beaches..
AND it's rich history..
Who couldn't fall in love with such an island?
I certainly did!
I enjoyed every bit of e trip..
Even e road side laksa was F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C!
I haven been thr in e past 12 yrs..
So it was reali diff for me.
Tho it was my second time.
WE took silk air
And the svc on board e plane was gr8 too.
All in all, it was a nicey trip.
I'd definitely go again in e near future I hope.

On our 1st day, we went on board e cable cars. And I tell youfor RM 15, it's a ride not to be missed!

pretty right? A bit foggy coz when we were up thr it was raining... it defnitely beat the air con anitime! Felt like e mist fan they installed in restaurants!



That 2 tiny dots are e cable cars


That's e view while going up.... and up...


Ever seen a smoky mountain?


Ok.. so tats a bit for e cable cars..
Nx we headed on to Berjaya resort .. b4 going to Makam Mahsuri.
So legend has it that she was accused of adultery & when she was killed eventually.. she bled of milky white blood, proving that she was innocent! And then she cursed Langkawi not to have ani prosper or gd luck or sth lyk it for 7 generations...

So here are my parent's in Mahsuri's village


Lastly for that day, we headed to the Dataran Helang (eagle's square).. to watch passing ships & eat e yummylicious laksa...

Look how stoopid I look! Thx to Mom who juz snapped while I was instructing her


Romantic Sunset (whr's e guy who's supposed to be holding my hand? lol)


The next day... we went to Tanjung Rhu beach..
Thr we ate at 1 of e restaurants... & it's a nice thing dining by e seaside...loved e hut idea..


Before we headed back to the airport.. we stopped over at the Underwater world. It was opened by e previous PM, Dr Mahathir. So much bigger..than e 1 we have. but of coz!





Of course... I wanted to show u guys how our beach by the hotel looks like(or at e back of our room).. So here you go... Of coz, me the beach lover... enjoyed langkawi for it's beaches e most.
A romantic spot.. perhaps for a weekend getaway or a 2nd honeymoon for those who's already married! hehe =D





And tats me... looking like part of a picture on the back of a holiday postcard (Or at least tats wat I tot... hahaha)

Ha-Choo!
M slightly under the whether. But had a gorgeous slp last night...
Ive got sore throat & phlegm
But otherwise im ok...
Hmmmm..
hehe.
din's mom ask y we dont wanna patch things up..
He's friends are asking too.
So.
Should we?
Wah...
It's like high school sweet hearts.
would it be eventually?
Thing is.
Kalau bab nk patch2 nie...
Ada leceh sikit la.
No doubt we had a history together.
We still might have a future.
But yg in between tu..
Pening kepala Akak!
Haha.
Aniwae.. Sholdnt think abt it much.
bcoz... It's a Saturday!
Hehehe
Knowing its saturday mks it feel so much brighter & such.

Have you felt the itch?
To just put on ur dancing shoes?
And dance the night away?
Alone..
& @ times with strangers..
The gyrating hips..
To the thumping rhythm of the music.
Today...
is 1 of those days for me.
I wanna party.
And more than anithing...
I'd wanna party with my gfs.
God. I missed partying.
Though I juz did it last weekend.
Perhaps it's bcoz.. It's friday!
---- I am dying to party... ----

Woke up dis morning to puke..
If thr's 1 thing i realli hate abt falling ill.. its e yukey feeling (aftertaste) of ur puke.. ewww.. gross.

Aniwae, e fever's subsided a lil. And today Im back to I cant slp night.. after such a beautiful sleep last night.

I cant help but feel a bit happier since that entry abt my ability to mk myself happy (Or is it juz e short term high of my retail therapy?lolx)

Sometimes I wonder.. when pple say that happiness comes to those who wants it badly.. do I not want it bad enuff? Or is it bcoz I want it too bad that I have overlooked it?

haha.. it's a gooseberry chase.

So.. Ali's going in NS this Sat. He bought me a glass pendant choker from Venice. V pretty.. Will tk a pic of it soon I hope.

Hmmmm... oh & had a conversation with DIn(The sec skool one)... and he was saying.. I would make a lovely gf (ehem ehem).. BUT. I'm superbly high maintenance..

And I was thinking he was partially correct. But I didnt mention abt ani1 having to support me. But still I guess he has a point. And maybe it's scaring all my potentials away...oh but what e hell..

And thinking abt it.. he also mentioned abt me not being as decent nor innocent as b4.. and how now perhaps bcoz of all e attn im getting.. Im spoilt for choice.

Again, maybe he's right. BUT im not like some super model or anithing. Nor am I any paris Hilton..

Speaking of the devil.. have u heard that she's engaged to her bf? Paris something something... e heir of a greek shipping co.

And that's an excellent eg of the rich getting richer... (the poor getting poorer?)

Their r/ship is 8 mths old..

haiz. Even Ms Hilton seems to have a stable relationship...

On a brighter note...

my mom cooked yong tau foo.. hehehe.. juz love her for cooking "sicky" fd juz coz im ill..

BTW? NVM if I haven found that knight in shining armour who is supposedly to save me from e shit that's happening.. iVE discovered a new love... and ohhh.... ORGASMIC PLEASURE.... YUM YUM!



Hmmm you know I have been such a couch potato sitting home.. SO I spent my days watching TV.. & TV1 (RTM) was showing this drama...

and I know maybe some of you guys may have heard this elsewhr.. but i hadnt hear it in a long time..

"Hawa dijadikan dari tulang rusuk Adam..dekat di hati untuk DISAYANG...dekat di tangan/lengan untuk DILINDUNG.."

I cant disagree with that.

Yes women were made to be loved, protected & to befrend, entertain, accompany the men.

But times keep on changing. Some men would tell me ladies in this era can CARE for themselves.

I, however begged to differ.

Let me be the lady who will be loved, cherished & protected.

The world is cold enuff as it is. Just what is wrong with being needed & loved?

Dont know y. . but when I saw dis skin. I could totally relate to it. Like it's me.TOTALLY.

Haiz. Time flies. Wished everything would be stagnant. At least til I get used to it.